I just wanted to leave a quick and important message that's not said enough and doing this goes against all my senses right now and i feel this is why it's so importantly to speak openly about this, I would rather share this rather than be silent in case someone needs to hear it. There are periods of time when I really struggle with my mental health, now is one of those times. I have people that love me and care about me, but as you may have felt before, that although I have people around I feel like I'm in the middle of a black hole with no way to escape. I have a horrible feeling of an overwhelming force breaking and bending me, but rather than go quite, I have decided to speak and I'm deciding to keep fighting it. If you're struggling with your mental health right now, you cannot struggle alone. And I know the instinct is to go quiet, to say nothing, I understand that despair even though I have no idea what you go through and face but you must speak up, and in certain circumstances speak out and ask for immediate help. Start small. Tell one person, a friend, a family member, anyone you trust. You don't need the perfect words. "I'm not doing great" is enough. Sometimes when you are low, small tasks can seem like mountains, answering a phone call, replying to a text or even going outside. You can ask someone ''can make me a doctors appointment'', ''can you Google what I should do'' or ''can you see if there is any support for me locally''. Speak to a doctor to help you try to fully understand the issue. Asking for help is exactly what they're there for. If the first conversation doesn't help, try again, the right support exists although it can take some time. Making the effort gives you a life life and stops you feeling hopeless. One thing that will help if you can force yourself to do these basic things, drink enough water, have a shower a day, eat enough, get enough sleep and try to tidy your room especially if you are spending lots of time there. I understand even these things can feel impossible, but they help, a lot. There are also organisations and helplines in every country, free and confidential, with people ready to listen at any hour. A quick search for mental health support where you live will find them. You are not a burden. You are not weak. You're a person going through something hard, and hard things are easier when they're shared. Do not suffer alone.